Post PPB AGM

just back from PPB AGM.

i showed my extremely tired face and brain,
when the meeting lasted for 5.5 hours.
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almost fainted. lol just kidding.


one part i want to mention here is, i felt so sorry to my dear exco chiew kim =(
i can see how much she worried about our portfolio for not having the right person to be exco.
i shall express my gratitude to her, as to nominate me twice as an exco.
but, i am very sorry for not being able to accept the challenge.
Dear EXCO, so sorry to you and the whole portfolio, for not being able to walk the next year of library portfolio with me.

after the first time i rejected her nomination, i can see through her lonely back. i know how much she worried about us.

i talked to myself, i was being too young to reject the offer. if i were given a chance, i would say yes.


and yepp the time did come, she still nominated for me.

i was lost. i worried a lot, more than she did.


i considered a lot of stuffs. i thought of my family. i thought of myself in the circle. i thought of the tough times i would have to go through alone. i thought of the break off in exco board for library portfolio. i thought of the possibility of winning. i thought of the lazy me.

at the moment saying menerima, i said menolak =S

negativity arose. demon won.

the awful moment.


sorry exco!


but as soon as the program proceeded, when the candidates were asked on what thing in ppb touched them, i dont have an answer for that. i then relieved a little, knowing it was alright for me.
from all the answers, i heard 90% about how they were touched by the EXCOs, in nurturing them in every possible way.
The EXCO helped the PEs in every direction and position, making them so much of touched, especially they were just new birds which entered USM.
i think if EXCOs are their sources of touching, this mindset will go wrong when obstacles strike them, especially in the absence of EXCO in the future.

i know saying all these here NOW is like backstabbing them, or rather, i'm giving an excuse for myself to feel better.
ha, anyhow, dhamma should always be the greatest thing in the board.


and so i left the hall as soon as the election was done. i dont know how to face my portfolio PEs at that moment, but not now. i think i have found the right mindset to face it.

A big applause to all my mates and dear EXCO.


T H A N K Y O U :)



不要拒绝别人，那时你在拒绝人生。
而我...好像拒绝了人生。


抛开过去，展望未来！